"You're a fat, ugly, stupid, loser." The bullying started in the 4th grade and continued into my 11th year of high school when I finally had enough. Standing up to bullies was definitely a change for me. But it only stopped the outer bullying. It was too late. I had already accepted the fact that I was in fact a fat, ugly, stupid loser.
Life was just a jumble of pain and codependency. It wasn't just my peers. Society constantly told me that I wasn't enough, that I needed to be prettier, skinnier, smarter, better, etc. Friends and family with eating disorders unintentionally encouraged my self hate. All around me I saw and believed the worst.
Seventeen years of my life wasted because I believed what others told me. All those years and it never occurred to me that I was depressed. I was simply convinced that at my core I was a loser. There was no doubt. I was permanently flawed.
Now I love myself, but it was such a painful journey. THEY ARE WRONG. You are NOT a loser. Stop believing their words, stop believing the worst. You deserve to know the truth: You are a beautiful, imperfect being with your own talents. Now is the time to reclaim your superpower. If you need support ask for it. Don't wait another moment.
I am a fiery spark lit from the universal flame of divine intention. When darkness obscures my vision, my spark stays strong. I burn hot like the sun, breathe cool like the moon, expand like stars and nourish like earth.
I am a source of unconditional love, of thunderstorms rolling in on a sunny day, reviving life with water drops, I splash rainbows across the sky. I am the ocean storm crashing waves into shores, powerfully ebbing day and night. I am all that is, the in-between and ever-expanding.
This is my intention.
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